well, no suprise there; laura hasn't updated a blog in, well, a long ass time. we all knew it would come to this and frankly, i'm not going to punish myself for falling into the same old routine as i always do.
to be honest, i've been struggling as of late. i've lost control of a lot in my life and i'm trying hard to regain my balance. while i love my job and madison has grown on me a bit more i find myself missing st. louis and the friendships i had there.
actually, i don't really even think it's that.
i think when you're younger everyone has this fairy tale idea of what life is like and i'm just now starting to realize my vision was completely scewed and that life is never going to turn out how i thought it was when i was 9 or 10.
i'm learning to trust myself and my instincts and to take things as they come - that seems to be the one thing i can control.